Looking Back, Moving Forward, and Going in the Right Direction

Where does the time go? It FLIES by, apparently. I can’t believe it’s already getting to the end of May. My life has been a work in progress since September, when I transitioned from a Stay-At-Home-Mom/Figure Competitor-In-Training… to the less-popular, but necessary role of Full-Time-Working-Mom/Part-Time-Student/Post-Competition-Athlete.
There are SO SO SO many facets of life I have been dying to share with you, but as you know, blogging has not been on the priority list.
I would love to get into more detail about my post-competition struggles with getting my metabolism back on track and finding a happy balance to my diet and training life. I want to discuss how managing a Womens-Only gym has opened my eyes to so much unexpected inspiration towards the plight of women’s health and weight issues. I have wanted to share some of the ups and downs of being a working mom and how I’ve been striving to improve my kids’ nutrition and fitness. All these aspects have contributed to a very busy season of growing my mind, my muscles, and my resolve.
But the icing on the cake after all has been said and done, is that I have finally achieved my pursuit of earning my Personal Trainer Certificate. I started this process about two and a half years ago – but of course, everything always works out in just the right timing; and part of that timing was having the experience of competing behind me – that experience was a HUGE part of my learning that made all my CPT studies so much more meaningful. If you had told me 20 yrs ago I would one day be a Personal Trainer, I would have no reason to even envision my life in that place. But embarking on this career at this point in my life
(did I mention my 20 yr high school reunion is next month?? lol) is just such a blessing. I know this is what I NEED to be doing.
In an ideal world, I would have liked to think I could train to compete this year, but I am no superwoman, unfortunately, and realized that I must take on one thing at a time. So I have been focusing on rehabilitating my metabolism (that is a whole OTHER post), building muscle, and loving life. I will take it one step at a time to see what happens next. I am in a happy place right now with my own goals and progress with my training.
What I DO know is I will be leaving my full-time gym-manager job at the end of June so I can be home with my kids all summer. I am planning on using this time to obtain a few more certifications so that I will be more qualified to focus my professional efforts on my passions for helping women with their weight loss and facilitating fitness for kids.
I am so excited to start a new chapter in this journey. It has not been an easy year….but all of it has been a necessary part of getting me to where I am going.

Like I said, I have LOTS to talk about. So many topics come up everyday from my conversations with ladies at the gym. I am truly interested in educating and empowering women in their health. I am hoping to start discussing some of these things on this blog more regularly, and incorporating ideas about youth fitness as well.

Let me know what you think! Til next time….live with passion, not perfection!

Mommy Needs Coffee….

Yes, I am still alive. And this blog site is still active! I have just not written anything in a VERY long time! AND I may not really write anything special here tonight, other than to tell you that….

My favourite mug :)

I have just had no time to do stuff like this. I wish there were more hours in the day to spend with my kids, train, work, study, and do everything my bursting heart desires…..

But I do love sharing my experiences through my blog, so bear with me as I get through this incredibly busy (and somewhat confusing) period of my life.

I say its confusing because I have so many different obligations, goals, and activities happening right now, that I’m often left feeling like I’m heading in five directions at once. I’m kind of ADD in that I want to balance all these areas, but yet find it really difficult to just focus on any one thing at any given time. One word for that: frustrating.

But I am determined to figure out a way — not because I want to be some kind of “superwoman”, but rather because I just really have a passion for all the things I’m trying to juggle.

So in the meantime, my blogging may go by the wayside. But I hope not. Just no promises.

What I DO promise is that even if I’m not blogging about it, I am DOING it: training hard, eating clean, and trying to help others do the same. :)

 

Having Some Lemonade on a Cold + Sour Winter’s Night

Sometimes it kind of sucks to have goals…..and things to accomplish.
What if all I ever cared about was dirty dishes, laundry, going to work, and what’s for dinner? I suppose my life might be a bit simpler.

However, that kind of simplicity is just not me.
I want (and HAVE) a lot of things.
Family. Career. Home. PERSONAL GOALS.

That last one…errr umm….the GOALS part….that’s the part that screws me up.
I’m rather complicated that way.

I want my GOALS so badly….but out of default and desire, those first three win out everytime. And then I maybe….sometimes…start to get…bitter.
I WANT IT ALL!!
Yet, lately I feel like I’ve been getting handed a few lemons.

“When you get lemons, make lemonade” — you say??

Not so easy, I would offer.
But what if….you got handed lemonade but all you actually chose to see was mushed up lemons?

This is my story going into 2012.
A bunch of stuff that really looks like sour lemons at first glance…BUT is actually a sweet gift if I can get over the sour part.

In what has become my crazy life of work, family, and a definite passion for my personal goals — I’ve felt lost in the goals area. I’ve known what it is I want, but felt that the structure and obligations of my life won’t allow for that. LEMONS.

However, I have begun to see how some of those “lemons” are actually a gift and allow me to pursue some of the things I really really want to accomplish.

Lesson of the day:
Sometimes it’s not about simply having been handed lemons and choosing to go to work in order to make sweet lemonade. It’s about realizing that lemonade had to start somewhere. And all that matters is you drink the lemonade handed to you…and recognize that it wouldn’t be so sweet if not for the sour.

For a while, all I could see was negatives. I thank God that those sour lemons might just serve His purpose for my life.  
Now I see that, along with everything else in my life that is a “priority”, there has been room made for some of my GOALS. What looked like a raw deal is actually a gift — a pipeline– to be able to fulfill those things.

I kinda think it would be a waste not to make the most of it. A loss of a precious gift if I continue to wallow in the parts that suck about it.

I WANTED it. Now I have the opportunity to go GET it.

GAME ON.